I Will Never Cut My Hair.

Okay... So I definitely trim it. (And actually need to get back to having regular trims again.) But I sure as hell won't be chopping it off ever again.

If you interact with me in real life, you may not realize how long and thick my hair is.  Hell, half the time I don't realize how long and thick my hair is... Because it's usually half pulled back or it looks like this...

 That's one tall, thick bun. 

That's one tall, thick bun. 

I break, on average, at least two ponytail bands a month wrapping this anaconda-like (in thickness and length) hair.

Okay, so maybe it's not the length of a real anaconda. But it would for sure give the girth of an anaconda a run for it's money. 

 Before yoga class, in all it's frizzy and wavy glory.

Before yoga class, in all it's frizzy and wavy glory.

Right now, it falls just above my elbow crease, when not straightened from it's naturally wavy mess. 

And I want it longer.

"But why, when you mostly wear it in a bun?" you might wonder.

Because I do throw it up in a bun for ease of being presentable. For the longest time, it would get washed at night, meaning I wake up with waves everywhere - but not pretty ones. So a bun was just easy to do.

But while at the Sanango retreat in April, when we were finally allowed to use soap again, I washed my hair in the morning and wore it down to air dry.

"It's so pretty and long," one of the other female guests said. 

It had been in a bun for most of the week. So you couldn't actually tell how much hair I had.

And when the hair is certain lengths, it's actually more high maintenance to care for than when it is this long. When it's this long, since being back from Sanango, I just wash it in the morning and let it air dry. The length and thickness are doing a good job of weighing the waves down.

But there have been times when I've cut it off in the past.

"Why don't you just keep it at your shoulders," my ex-husband once asked. "Everyone usually dow that once they get married."

He usually said this when he watched me brush it out and would see how much work it was to get out the knots that form at the base of my scalp. He would wince in pain for me.

So I did cut it off a few times. Have it thinned out.

But every time I've done it, I've regretted it.

Greatly.

My hair is so thick that anything shorter than it is now looks matronly. Common. Bulky.

Which is why it gets thrown in a bun or pulled half back most of the time.

If I had thinner hair - hair that laid down properly or was easier to style in a chic way... You can bet I would have it shorter. It would look sleek and cool.

But with my hair?

 My goal is to someday have long AF grey hair. 

My goal is to someday have long AF grey hair. 

Nah.

The longer, the better. Within reason.

As soon as it hits past my elbow tip, I'll respect the length. That's where it will stay. No shorter. 

So, if you're looking for a sound investment for your money... Invest in TRESemme conditioner. Because that's what I use. I go through one gigantic pump bottle a month. And I don't even wash my hair every day.

And as I age, I will be the glamorous mature woman with long silver-grey hair.